Afraid

I'm afraid

Of my body

Of my mind

Of my weak(ness)

Or my power(less)

Of myself

I'm scared

Of you

Of them

Of me

Of where to go

Of what to find

Of how to reach

You know me

I'm not perfect

I don't even try

Why can't you see

I'm so distant

Feeling like flying high

I'm afraid of being wrong

I'm scared of being a failure

I must go on and be strong

Don't wanna make this so long

Have I turned it into a song?

Take a listen, it's all my pleasure.

The One Inspiration

I found peace, I guess

I'm feeling so much better

And it doesn't matter

There's no mess-

-Anymore in my head

I know I'm doing it right

I just need you to be by my side

So I can feel more alive than dead

It's not about the situation

It's not about the grief or pity

Because I want to admit it

Should even keep it

That promise I made at that very train station

You'll never be alone

Come take my hand

We'll take a stand

'Till we come back home

'Till the world is gone

Wish I knew more than words, actions

Just to make sense

Just to see some reactions

Just to call this intense

I know what I need

I need you, I need it bad

You're the one I wanna see

You're the one who can makes me succeed

There's no more mad, there's no more sad

It's only the best time I've ever had

I found peace, I guess

I'm feeling so much better

And it doesn't matter

There's no mess-

-Anymore in my head

I know I'm doing it right

I just need you to be by my side

So I can feel more alive than dead

It's not about the situation

It's not about the grief or pity

Because I want to admit it

Should even keep it

That promise I made at that very train station

You'll never be alone

Come take my hand

We'll take a stand

'Till we come back home

'Till the world is gone

Wish I knew more than words, actions

Just to make sense

Just to see some reactions

Just to call this intense

I know what I need

I need you, I need it bad

You're the one I wanna see

You're the one who can makes me succeed

There's no more mad, there's no more sad

It's only the best time I've ever had

First

I don't know how to say it

It's so hard to talk about me

But I have to admit

I don't know who I need to be.

I get up every day feeling it won't be over

People are the same but they don't say anything

Maybe I should have a makeover

Maybe I should erase everything

You don't seem too worried

You look so dazed

All you are is hurried

Yeah, you forgot to be praised

Now look at my face

Do I look happy?

Show me where's the grace

I'll show your work's crappy

About me, about you

There's no one day I stop thinking what to do

There's no time I stop seeing where I've been through

There's no second I wish you'd pay for it too

I don't know who's wrong

I don't know who's to blame

I just wanted to be strong

I just wanted to have no shame

I just want you to right-spell my name

Rhymes to everyone

Yes I believe

You're good, you're great

Yeah I believe

There's nothing wrong in trying

The only shit is giving up.

Yes I know

You can do whatever you like

Yeah I know

You can do whatever you want

So do it with grace

Do (it) cause you love

Cause it's one thing you care

The most.

Don't let them say

You worth nothing

Don't let it beat you down

It's a fuckin' lie

You gotta stay true

It's only your truth that matters

Your matter!

Hey, get up of this bed

Take some fresh air, drink your coffee

See the sunshine

Be humble

Just be yourself

You don't have to be anybody else

Yeah, you're awesome like this

Nothing can stop you

Unless you want it to

So don't ask for it.

Live while you can

Enjoy what's good coming to you

Carry a bag full of stories

Be proud of what you achieved

Say a big 'go fuck yourself' for the haters

They don't care about you, they don't have to be heard

You're precious, you're fuckin' gold

You're magic, you're grace

You're beautiful, important

For me, for the ones you love, for yourself.

You need to be remembered

All day long

(Of) how much I adore you.

15.09

Every time I close my eyes

I see all of you - my demons

Embraced with all my lies

Writing doubts over my reasons

Making my hope every day (a little more) dies

I can see all of you but I can't understand

What makes you think I wanna suffer so bad

My path is uncertain, completely unplanned

Nothing makes sense, all I can see is sad (ness).

Wanna play hide & seek?

The strong always prevail over the weak

Wanna be the only one to blackball?

The weakest goes to the wall

Wanna hit them away, disjoint?

Rope always breaks at its weakest point

I must say sorry

I make mistakes

But you won't forgive

I'll have my story

Whatever it takes

I'll make it worth for me to live

Dot

I'm feeding a beast

With my blood, gets me freak

I'm all ears

Heart, mind, help me recover

I'm falling down, sorry mother

I'm not insane, I'm going crazy

You only come when you're alone, you lazy

You think this is what you really want to be

I've seen you, you don't love me

Or anyone, or anything, not even yourself

This torture makes me wanna kill myself

You don't want my fucking attention

You just want a body to be your shelter

A mind to use and fuck up.

I'm out of comprehension

Completely helter-skelter

We never got together but this is our breakup.

I can hear your voice calling my name

I can see where we were that day

I can see you down the hall, waving your hand to me with no shame

What you're doing? Is this funny?

I can't guess your thoughts, I can't read your mind

To not see you I could even be blind

For a moment

For a while

You're a mistery to me, I can't fill your file

Let me tell you just one thing

I don't need you in my life

I can't play your games

This is not a choice of mine

You can be around but I'll always be afraid

Afraid of what I was, of what I am

Too generous, too good as they said

"She's just another one, leave by her own"