Do you really wanna know what future held for me?
People were
born every day, every minute, externalizing the impulsiveness and the
lack of self care of all those people who wanted a family - or were
forced to give this moment away
People learnt so many things, from
useful to useless, from Maths to Scandinavian poetry, from Blues to
Synth Pop, from love to hate, yes, to love and also, specially, to hate,
and not just hate to themselves, but to hurt people very deeply.
People
grew up - so as their mental health issues, body diseases, greed,
proud, that fucking superiority complex, religiosity and intolerance
and all of the extreme political bullshit you talked so much about and
until today people seem to be too worried about choosing one side over
chossing the fairest one.
People related to each other, created
strong ties, made love, broke up, got back together, broke up again,
made friends and made love again and repeated this cycle to their last
days - or to the day they finally realized it was the most boring cycle
ever because they've lost much time and forgot the real meaning to their
lives.
They've been fighting, but this you know damn well,
you've been there for all your living days. Skyscrapers fell down,
soldiers were shot, cops killed innocent people, white men wanted to be
the only men in the world, this world dying little by little while they
burn, deforest and pollute and throw their toxic trash into the deep
water and destroy their own source of life and food. People are going
insane but, there were harder times even before you were born, am I
right? This is only about the consequences and the lessons we should
have learned about all those years that have been long gone.
People
died, my love. Including you. Here I am sitting under a roof, drinking
clean water and taking my hot shower when it's cold, baking whatever I
want to, posting this crappy letter online while I dig into your life
back when we used to hang out in black and white clothes, running in the
smoky street, screaming to car horns and lunch time bells. And people
are still dying, by every cause, every reason, every circumstance, every
mistake and lack of options and abundance of accidents as possible.
Just
like you. The water was jealous of your calmness and patience and
decided to fight you but couldn't understand why you weren't fighting
back, and then it was too late to come back. It just took the only thing
that the future couldn't hold for me, the one I will never look deep
into the eyes again, the one I will never touch hands again, the one
that will never learn anything again, that will never grow older, that
will never get the chance to see what the future held for himself.
