23.06.2021

 

Do you really wanna know what future held for me?

People were born every day, every minute, externalizing the impulsiveness and the lack of self care of all those people who wanted a family - or were forced to give this moment away
People learnt so many things, from useful to useless, from Maths to Scandinavian poetry, from Blues to Synth Pop, from love to hate, yes, to love and also, specially, to hate, and not just hate to themselves, but to hurt people very deeply.
People grew up - so as their mental health issues, body diseases, greed, proud, that fucking superiority complex, religiosity and intolerance and all of the extreme political bullshit you talked so much about and until today people seem to be too worried about choosing one side over chossing the fairest one.
People related to each other, created strong ties, made love, broke up, got back together, broke up again, made friends and made love again and repeated this cycle to their last days - or to the day they finally realized it was the most boring cycle ever because they've lost much time and forgot the real meaning to their lives.

They've been fighting, but this you know damn well, you've been there for all your living days. Skyscrapers fell down, soldiers were shot, cops killed innocent people, white men wanted to be the only men in the world, this world dying little by little while they burn, deforest and pollute and throw their toxic trash into the deep water and destroy their own source of life and food. People are going insane but, there were harder times even before you were born, am I right? This is only about the consequences and the lessons we should have learned about all those years that have been long gone.

People died, my love. Including you. Here I am sitting under a roof, drinking clean water and taking my hot shower when it's cold, baking whatever I want to, posting this crappy letter online while I dig into your life back when we used to hang out in black and white clothes, running in the smoky street, screaming to car horns and lunch time bells. And people are still dying, by every cause, every reason, every circumstance, every mistake and lack of options and abundance of accidents as possible.

Just like you. The water was jealous of your calmness and patience and decided to fight you but couldn't understand why you weren't fighting back, and then it was too late to come back. It just took the only thing that the future couldn't hold for me, the one I will never look deep into the eyes again, the one I will never touch hands again, the one that will never learn anything again, that will never grow older, that will never get the chance to see what the future held for himself.