Afraid

I'm afraid

Of my body

Of my mind

Of my weak(ness)

Or my power(less)

Of myself

I'm scared

Of you

Of them

Of me

Of where to go

Of what to find

Of how to reach

You know me

I'm not perfect

I don't even try

Why can't you see

I'm so distant

Feeling like flying high

I'm afraid of being wrong

I'm scared of being a failure

I must go on and be strong

Don't wanna make this so long

Have I turned it into a song?

Take a listen, it's all my pleasure.

The One Inspiration

I found peace, I guess

I'm feeling so much better

And it doesn't matter

There's no mess-

-Anymore in my head

I know I'm doing it right

I just need you to be by my side

So I can feel more alive than dead

It's not about the situation

It's not about the grief or pity

Because I want to admit it

Should even keep it

That promise I made at that very train station

You'll never be alone

Come take my hand

We'll take a stand

'Till we come back home

'Till the world is gone

Wish I knew more than words, actions

Just to make sense

Just to see some reactions

Just to call this intense

I know what I need

I need you, I need it bad

You're the one I wanna see

You're the one who can makes me succeed

There's no more mad, there's no more sad

It's only the best time I've ever had

I found peace, I guess

I'm feeling so much better

And it doesn't matter

There's no mess-

-Anymore in my head

I know I'm doing it right

I just need you to be by my side

So I can feel more alive than dead

It's not about the situation

It's not about the grief or pity

Because I want to admit it

Should even keep it

That promise I made at that very train station

You'll never be alone

Come take my hand

We'll take a stand

'Till we come back home

'Till the world is gone

Wish I knew more than words, actions

Just to make sense

Just to see some reactions

Just to call this intense

I know what I need

I need you, I need it bad

You're the one I wanna see

You're the one who can makes me succeed

There's no more mad, there's no more sad

It's only the best time I've ever had

First

I don't know how to say it

It's so hard to talk about me

But I have to admit

I don't know who I need to be.

I get up every day feeling it won't be over

People are the same but they don't say anything

Maybe I should have a makeover

Maybe I should erase everything

You don't seem too worried

You look so dazed

All you are is hurried

Yeah, you forgot to be praised

Now look at my face

Do I look happy?

Show me where's the grace

I'll show your work's crappy

About me, about you

There's no one day I stop thinking what to do

There's no time I stop seeing where I've been through

There's no second I wish you'd pay for it too

I don't know who's wrong

I don't know who's to blame

I just wanted to be strong

I just wanted to have no shame

I just want you to right-spell my name

Rhymes to everyone

Yes I believe

You're good, you're great

Yeah I believe

There's nothing wrong in trying

The only shit is giving up.

Yes I know

You can do whatever you like

Yeah I know

You can do whatever you want

So do it with grace

Do (it) cause you love

Cause it's one thing you care

The most.

Don't let them say

You worth nothing

Don't let it beat you down

It's a fuckin' lie

You gotta stay true

It's only your truth that matters

Your matter!

Hey, get up of this bed

Take some fresh air, drink your coffee

See the sunshine

Be humble

Just be yourself

You don't have to be anybody else

Yeah, you're awesome like this

Nothing can stop you

Unless you want it to

So don't ask for it.

Live while you can

Enjoy what's good coming to you

Carry a bag full of stories

Be proud of what you achieved

Say a big 'go fuck yourself' for the haters

They don't care about you, they don't have to be heard

You're precious, you're fuckin' gold

You're magic, you're grace

You're beautiful, important

For me, for the ones you love, for yourself.

You need to be remembered

All day long

(Of) how much I adore you.

15.09

Every time I close my eyes

I see all of you - my demons

Embraced with all my lies

Writing doubts over my reasons

Making my hope every day (a little more) dies

I can see all of you but I can't understand

What makes you think I wanna suffer so bad

My path is uncertain, completely unplanned

Nothing makes sense, all I can see is sad (ness).

Wanna play hide & seek?

The strong always prevail over the weak

Wanna be the only one to blackball?

The weakest goes to the wall

Wanna hit them away, disjoint?

Rope always breaks at its weakest point

I must say sorry

I make mistakes

But you won't forgive

I'll have my story

Whatever it takes

I'll make it worth for me to live

Dot

I'm feeding a beast

With my blood, gets me freak

I'm all ears

Heart, mind, help me recover

I'm falling down, sorry mother

I'm not insane, I'm going crazy

You only come when you're alone, you lazy

You think this is what you really want to be

I've seen you, you don't love me

Or anyone, or anything, not even yourself

This torture makes me wanna kill myself

You don't want my fucking attention

You just want a body to be your shelter

A mind to use and fuck up.

I'm out of comprehension

Completely helter-skelter

We never got together but this is our breakup.

I can hear your voice calling my name

I can see where we were that day

I can see you down the hall, waving your hand to me with no shame

What you're doing? Is this funny?

I can't guess your thoughts, I can't read your mind

To not see you I could even be blind

For a moment

For a while

You're a mistery to me, I can't fill your file

Let me tell you just one thing

I don't need you in my life

I can't play your games

This is not a choice of mine

You can be around but I'll always be afraid

Afraid of what I was, of what I am

Too generous, too good as they said

"She's just another one, leave by her own"

Make it Real (to me).

I had a dream last night
It felt so real I could be sleeping forever
You were there, that was you your face, your voice, yeah I was right
We were talking about everything, made me feel clever
Then I wrote something, a few rhymed words, and you held me tight
You said that was your favorite, you sang them, you were happy, shining, so bright

It was like you and me, we were trying to forget
The hurt and pain we went through that time, traumatized
I promised I would never talk about that again, to let no one upset
Didn't need to, all that sad thoughts ran away the second I looked at your eyes
You made everything clear, I had no regret
The only one with a smile I know I could ~from miles~ recognize.

Can I say the best two ~unconscious~ hours?
May I ask you to be part of my REAL life?
You say you're no hero, but inside you got the best superpowers

All these beautiful things you make even easier to admire
All these talent and strength make the others look like cowards
All this love inside you makes me want no more fights

Yeah you know well
It was just a dream
For me it's not enough
But I think I understand
The world I created
Maybe it's just too perfect
It can only exist in my mind

Don't give up on me
I saw you there
I could give any money
To make that smile come out again
And again
And again
And again.

WWID

Hello there, it's me.
Oh, yeah, you don't know me, I'll make a presentation.

Grew up in a small town
Mom and dad got divorced
Too young, already had a breakdown
Barely knew it was only getting worse.

Love, hate, passion, devotion, rebel thoughts, admiration.

I have no role model
I have no example to follow
It's been years looking for someone
Who could make this pain and hurt gone [away].

Where's everybody? Why am I here alone?
Why can't you leave reason beside and give a chance to emotion?

I never knew where's my place
I never knew who I want to be
I used to say "give me some space"
Now I'm trying to reach [again] who probably forgot about me.

Is it just me or it's dark in here? // My moves are in slow-motion!

I was told to create or invest or produce nothing
"Stay with us" they said, "you don't know how to discover anything at all"
I did, and I was wrong, I saw the devil coming
It threw me onto the wall, there was no one home to call
"You'll never be important, look at you, you're so small!"

Destroyed, deluded, mistaken, unhappy, unsatisfied, out of control, losing the mind.
Do you need all the world's happiness or I can have a little portion?